My computer crashed... my heart is broken...

My computer is done, gone, dead! So many things I don't have a back-up of. I cried and cried and still can. Even at work I feel like a time bomb. My heart is broken and I don't know how to fix it. I guess that's how my relationship to my computer really is. It held so many memories, work, thoughts, music, photos, so much... gone.

Needless to say I'm using food to get through all this. But I think I've had enough time to mourn over it, four whole days to be exact. I'll get back on track tomorrow. Why not now? Because I'm letting myself have the rest of the day like a spoiled child. By the way I've lost 3 lbs. Gotta be ready for the Monday weigh in.

On top of all, this is one of the craziest weeks at work. God, please let me get through this.

Hope you have a better week than I do.

So may be I don't have that much time after all

Since I last blogged, I really tried to take photos of what I eat. What did I end up with? A bunch of breakfast photos and nothing else. I guess my brain only functions in the morning. May be it wouldn't be so bad, if I didn't eat the following: super-sized MegaMac, two pizzas, lot of chocolate, McNuggets, milkshake, and I'm deffinetely forgetting something, but who cares, right? No! I care!

I did not gain any lbs, ofcourse I also didn't lose any. I was talking to a friend at work today. She said she gained 2 lbs since she said she would start dieting. But she needs to lose probably 5 lbs and there, she is perfect. I told her I didn't lose any, but it was OK, cos I wasn't the one getting married soon. She is. Then she said "You don't have a wedding, but you have to look gorgeous at mine!" Duh! I do, don't I!

That gives me a date to look forward to, which I think could be a serious motivation for me. Because I do need one. I need to work at something. A special kind of push to direct me on my way. So here is the date:

June 23rd

That gives me solid three months. (Need time to shop for the dress, and fine tune) 12 weeks.

Do you think I could lose 20 lbs by June 1st? That's my challenge. That's a reward to look forward to. I love it.